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berlin - 2004-03-14
2003-02-08 @ 01:31
Why can't I escape me? I can escape from everything else, but not from me. It's one thing I really want and that is impossible. FUCK!! Why can't I escape from my body and my soul? Why do I have to be stuck with this body for the rest of my life? Because I'm a loser.
I have 3 goals in my life in diffrent priority, but I don't think I can manage any of them!
1. Be thin. I have been skinny before, but not now. I have no willpower left. I'm a loser.
2. Take suicide. I hate my life and sometimes I just want to die, but I'm to cowardly. I can't go through with it. I'm scared to death, and I don't want to hurt everyone that cares for me. Thank you all :)
3. Get well! Eat what I want without all the guilt and shame. Don't be so frightened. I want to smile and laugh again, and be me!
Is this too much to ask for? Probaly yes...
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Today I feel:
I wanna have control
I wanna perfect body
I wanna perfect soul
I want you to notice
When I'm not around
So fucking special
I wish I was special
But I'm a creep
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here.
~Creep - Radiohead~
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